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Journal Entry: Fri Jun 26, 2009, 1:17 AM







Cancer.




I had another one of those days where I had to stop and consider what I was/am doing with myself.



Most of you will know I'm currently working two jobs - the temp job I took over summer got extended due to the ill health of the lady who holds the position. What started out as a summer job, then went to one day every 3 weeks, then went to almost full-time back in April and here we are almost in July and I'm still at it. But I digress...



I have only met this woman on two occasions, for reasonably brief periods. But what she is currently going through caused a fairly major jolt in my world today. She has been battling cancer and I was bought in to cover for her during surgeries and chemo etc. She was waiting for a scan and results from her doctor, and the news came back the other day. There's another tumour behind her lungs, and it is inoperable due to it's proximity to her spine. It will be treated with chemo, but naturally until that is over they won't know what will happen. Quite the blow when everything seemed so positive.



Do you ever stop, and I mean really stop, to consider your own mortality? This woman is so strong, such a fighter, inspires such love and devotion in her work colleagues, friends and family, she's one of the people you want to be around. How is it, that someone like her has to go through so much? Is it really just the way things are?



I know too many people fighting cancer currently. It seems like not a month goes by recently that I don't get told of someone else dear to us having to go through it, or worse, go through it again. Sometimes I just sit back and wonder how I've managed to dodge the bullet so far. What am I doing that these other people aren't? Is it purely '(bad) luck of the draw'?






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:bulletblue: It is not necessary to win every argument. One must accept that the person is not in agreement, and learn from his position.


:bulletblue: Make peace with your past, so as not to ruin your present.


:bulletblue: Don’t compare your life with others. You have no idea of the highways they have travelled in their lives.


:bulletblue: Nobody is responsible for your happiness, except yourself.


:bulletblue: Remember well that we have no control over what happens to us, but only what we do.







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It's a tough call. I think it all depends on our genetics. All sorts of things in life can cause difficulties for people which make them develop some sort of disease. I know people who have smoked all their life and have the clearest of lungs yet another person as young as 22 can get deathly ill with emphyzyma. We either have active cancer cells or non-active cells. It's not a matter of good person/bad person or healthy vs. non-healthy. We see fit active sports people just suddenly drop and die... WTF is up with that?

To answer your question, yes, I've often thought about my own mortality. Most of my family has suffered and died from one disease or another and it scares me. I fear going to the doctor that they may find "something".
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I hear you - I had blood tests done last week, as did a friend of mine. I'm overweight and don't really eat healthy (I do now due to a new weight loss regime, but previously...), she is slim and eats all the right stuff. My cholesterol came in at 5.1 and her's was 9. :| To say I was surprised was an understatement.

I sometimes think the same thing about going to the doctor... but in the long run I'd think I'd rather they found something while it was still treatable, than to find it when it was too late to do anything.

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In round 5 or 6 of my mother's 30 year cancer battle she actually had several of her vertebrae removed and replaced by a titanium and some sort of poly-resin cage. In order to do that surgery they had to break open her rib cage and move her heart and one lung 'out of the way' to get things done.

Gruesome, yes. but... in essence it worked.. for a while. She even walked again although it was said she had no chance to. I learned a LOT about ';physiotherapy' ( and determination!) those years.

Tell your friend to seek multiple opinions. there is a MASSIVE level of difference between individual doctors and the different various hospitals out there... what one say is 'impossible' may be quite common and successful at another. It is hard to think of.. but remember that hospitals are very high-rolling money making businesses too. If ONE car company told you they made the ONLY CAR for your needs... would you just take their word for it? Think of Hospitals, clinics, even individual doctors in that sense as well as being a little humanitarian.

Just make sure your friend 'shops around' for treatment options. there are a lot out there... and it would be terrible if she either died or suffered unduly JUST because she was not aware of ALL the options open to her.

And yes. I am continually aware of my own mortality. Some days it is a more positive experience than others...

Keep well... and your friend too.
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Cancer is one of those insidious diseases that people never really think about, until someone they know has it.
I have a high rate of heart attack, since it comes from both of my parents. I think people tend to delude themselves into thinking they are bulletproof. The circle of life will happen whether we want it to or not, sometimes sooner for some.

Live every day, one at a time. Do not look back at what could have been. Do not look at what problems that are in tomorrow. Live. Love. :heart:

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I have a friend who is only 20 years old who found out in January that he has cancer. I don't remember what type, but all I remember is that one day it's really going to hit him and there's nothing anybody can do. He used to be one of my best friends, and it's a terrible feeling knowing that no one can help him and he probably won't be alive this time next year. :(

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It's not a matter of dodging bullets... It's not like if you're good you don't get ill, if you're bad you die... if life would be like that then there'd be less crappy people around isn't it?
There's a high rate of cancer in my family, but there's no way to know if I'll get it or not... and for sure I don't want to spend my life thinking about it. The best thing to do is to enjoy life the best you can, at least this is what I learnt from the people around me. I don't want to bother you with cancer stories ad I'm sure you've heard enough of them, but I can talk to you about a woman that I have the chance to work with (her contract will stop in July).She has Multiple Sclerosis and she already lost her son cause he had that too. You might think she's a depressed woman... well she's not at all, she's trying to live her life and enjoy every moment she can spend with her daughter and with her bf (she's even planning to get married again). I think she is the true example that even if life is crap we still have to go on living. There's so many depressed/anxious persons around the world that have no idea on what it means to live with a "bomb" in their body that can explode anytime when you less expect it... I think that if they'd spend some more time with people like my co-worker they'll learn that life can be worse and that their big problems aren't really that big. ;)

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I don't know. I've found the older I get, the more consideration that I take that we've all got limited time here. The people in your life become just that more meaningful, it's why it's so important to include them as much as possible. I think no matter how tough things can get...and they DO get very tough - enjoy life and drink it up with our loved ones while we're here, any of us can go at anytime.
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Yeah, there is a lot of camaraderie between surgeons here so they're happy to refer them on to other surgeon's/hospitals/regions where they know someone specialises in what's required. A friend's mum just got back from the South Island where she had surgery for it, because no one here could handle the job, and the guy down there is the best apparently.

Good analogy with the cars too - pays to remember things like that. So often we get hung up on going to 'our doctor' because he/she knows the patient history. But they're human and don't know everything. Sometimes you have to branch out.

30 years is a long time to be battling, but at least she battled. Most give up at the first hurdle.
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No one is ever bulletproof, I think most people will always have something they have to combat in life.

It seems to be at the point now that everyone knows someone who has it/had it/died from it, and that's a scary thought.

As you say, the most we can do is just keeping going and not worry about what might or might not happen.

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